At the dinner table we will share our highs, lows, and buffalos.
Highs- the best part of your day
Lows- the bummers
Buffalo- the part of your day that you didn’t see coming
As a type one diabetic, I expected to have high blood sugar and low blood sugar but I was not prepared for the enormous cost that would come with it. Y’all- I am expensive! I spend a mortgage payment every month on my healthcare. I am extremely grateful for the technology that has given me freedom to live a life that allows me to swim as long as I want with my children, to complete a high intensity work out, and live my every day moments with little fear that my sugars are going to prevent me from living.
In the dark, yucky parts of my heart I fall into the comparison trap that opens the door to jealousy. The truth is, jealousy believes the lie that God owes me and comparison is the thief of joy. My only win is to fight back, to stay in my lane, & to celebrate all the wins.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 This is not the promise that life will not have heartache and trials. This is the promise that you have a good God in heaven who gives you a purpose in the pain, hope while lies tells you it’s hopeless, and a promise that God sees you and cares about your highs, lows, and buffalo.
The irony of the picture above is that is a screenshot of my current blood sugar level. It looks perfect and it’s easy to gloss over the fact that I have very little figured out. My sugar can reach 300 and 55 without much warning other than the beeping of my phone. The picture doesn’t express the body aches that come after a rollercoaster day where my sugars have more up and down arrows then a steady straight line. While most people will never know the depth of your struggles, God knows the plans that he has for you- plans to give you hope and a future.